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Anjuli grew up as a missionary kid secretly wondering, “Why does everyone else understand what a relationship with Jesus is, but me?” It wasn’t until she ran into her fears instead of from them, that Anjuli found her voice and the love of God meeting her there. She is a...

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  1. Thank you for this call away from the striving life. I have line that runs horizontally between my eyebrows, and I know my youngest son would not recognize me without it. I think often of “putting on” Christ–clothing myself in His compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness, and patience–but I forget that He first put me on, and He is doing the heavy lifting here.

    • Love your “He is doing the heavy lifting here” Michele. Thanks for that. Like He tells us to be anxious about “nothing” (we realize that means that He wants us to spill everything verbally from our Heads and hearts unto Him) – sometimes the list is exhausting and anxious items keep getting added in terms of the “anxious disclosure” – depending on the circumstances of days or lives.

      I love your “He is doing the heavy lifting”.

      I am imagining myself just throwing down all the anxiousness-producing items in a big pile…and Jesus comes walking toward me and easily lifts it all in One Hand, looks at me graciously and Kindly and then turns His back, but holds out His free hand for me to grasp and walk with Him.

      Seriously, I am weeping as I write this…so grateful that He will take every anxious item up “easily” and then allow me (and you of course!) to experience “ease and warmth” in His gentle, strong fingers. All day I am going to live and move and “speak my being” to Him saying : Lord, thank you for doing the heavy lifting here”.

      May He richly bless your day with fragrant glimpses of Him.

      May He saturate you with His Living Love. Janine

  2. Anjuli,
    I have OCD, an anxiety disorder. I also suffer from generalized anxiety. I used to curse this illness because it is so insidious and can rob you of a lot of joy. I still don’t like anxious spells, but now they send me running right into the arms of Jesus. I can honestly say that I don’t think I’d have the relationship that I have with the Lord if I didn’t have this illness. It keeps me utterly relying on and depending upon Jesus. It’s only by His grace (which is sufficient) that I get through the days sometimes. So, like you I have learned to befriend my anxiety (which is fear amplified a 1000 times). God has proven himself to be faithful over and over again. If I didn’t have fear and anxiety, I wouldn’t have found Jesus as my refuge. Great reminder today!
    Bev xx

  3. I like you! You may have some quirks but I like you a lot! Keep blessing with your openness. And by God’s grace keep pointing others to Christ. Love (and like ) you, sweet friend.

  4. Anjuli, thank you. For describing so well what the battle feels like but infusing it with hope, truth, and love. Needed this reminder this morning.

  5. Anjuli, you are such an amazing mum with all your kids you find time to run your fundraising for other mothers and kids in need. You are an example of Christ in this way! Thank you for this reminder, I am leaning on God, on Jesus and on the Holy Spirit more and more and it feels good! I feel contented and safe. I am by no means perfect but God is with me through it all. I’m praying to put on ‘Christ’ and all his wonderful attributes I pray I can consistently show these in my own life!

  6. This is total encouragement for the day! I believe so many readers will related to this. God is using you and the rest of the team to minister to each of us. Thank you Anjuli. Continued blessings.

    • Thanks Karen. I’m so grateful for this community and the constant encouragement here. Blessings!

  7. Yes, Anjuli! Reading people is a strength, and like you, it’s helped me navigate life – moves, motherhood, determining healthy or unhealthy relationships. But all strengths can become a weakness. God is good to gently catch our attention and bring us back. Thank you for your honesty today.

    • Yes, its a strength and a weakness. I am constantly having to surrender and be mindful of my motives. Thank you!

  8. Anjuli,
    Thank-you ,this was very helpful. And so was your son, to help with his sister, (team work).
    Have a blessed day all,

  9. When I was younger, I felt the same as you but now as I am older, I just won’t allow others to dictate how I feel or think. I am not that scared little girl who wanted everyone to like me. I am me and there is none other like me declares our Awesome God. I think in this society especially with social media, we feel the need to be accepted, liked and so forth. The thing is that if we only lived within these constraints and not allowing others to see the real authentic version of ourself, we are missing the opportunity to possibly be that light for those who truly may need it. Everyone is fighting their own struggles and we all are striving to be liked, to be loved for who we are. Let us let that fear go and be the best true version of ourselves even if it looks messy. Thank you for sharing this.

    • So true. I think social media plays a big part in this. Now we can measure if we are liked by actual “likes!” I have to be so mindful of my motives. I hope I can care less more and more what others think and find freedom to be myself. The struggle is real. Thanks for your encouragement.

  10. I’ve left kids in the car, other people’s children at the pool, and dogs at the groomer. If my head wasn’t attached I’d leave that somewhere too, so you are not alone. You’re right, it’s what we do with our fears and anxiety that makes the difference. We can’t beat something we turn our back on, ignore or refuse to confront.
    Thank you for this reminder as we head into the weekend where the desire to fit in and be liked seems to ramp up!!

  11. You are a brave young lady. thank you for sharing your story–we mom’s make many mistakes, and thankfully God’s angels are with us working to stop us from going all the way into the store! Many of us spend a lot of years blaming our circumstances, the way we were raised, or ourselves for being defective in some way–and we build up walls of defenses that protect our shortcomings. You are getting it. You are opening yourself up to God and giving him all of what needs to be guided or healed–I wish I had done this years ago! I’m in my late 50’s and I am finally living more intentionally and authentically with Jesus as my center compass!! Bless you for sharing your story–I needed to hear it today, as many other women I’m sure did too—keep writing, you have a gift there!!

    • Ahhh thank you much. I am so grateful to be here. I’m sure I’m not the only one whose made mistakes. I hope moms can find more space to be honest. I hope God can always be my compass and center. Thank you for welcoming me and encouraging me!

  12. Thankyou for your post! I so related to you ! Thankyou for the encouragement to befriend our anxiety!!! I will give that a try! Lauren Griesmeyer

  13. Anjuli,

    God doesn’t want us striving through life. He wants us. Our time with Him in prayer & meditation. 1 Peter 5:7 says “Cast all your anxieties on Him because He cares for you”. He already knows our problems & wants to live with open hands & hearts to release everything to Him. Like Michele said “Let Him do the heavy lifting” while we just hold His hands. God understands us better than we know ourselves.

    This country is filled with people having psychological disorders. Thank you for shedding light on this somewhat touchy subject. Most won’t talk about it-especially in the church. It is something that definitely needs to be addressed. We need to own it & seek help whenever possible.


  14. Thank you. I too struggle with this underlying anxiety and desire to be other than who God lovingly created. I’m working hard at it though and most days, it’s working. But loved your article.