Even When

Throughout August, September, and the beginning of October I was very tired, all the time.

“How are you?”

“Tired.”

That was my go-to response. I just felt this heavy weight of tiredness on me, and I cried out to the Lord about it. Was it my health? Was I not getting good sleep? Was it a depression thing?

What if it was just a thing I had to deal with? What if this was my life, and I was just a tired person?

I sat down with my Bible and asked the Lord for encouragement through this relentless tiredness. I read Philippians, and this is what the Lord impressed upon me (and maybe it will encourage you in your struggle as well):

Even when I’m tired (you fill in your weakness or struggle) . . .

God will keep perfecting a good work in me until the day of Christ Jesus. (1:6)

I am still a partaker of grace — that doesn’t go away no matter what. (1:7)

I am filled with the fruit of righteousness through Jesus. (1:11)

Christ can still be exalted through me even in my tiredness. (1:20)

I will keep on for the sake of others — for their progress and joy in the faith. (1:25)

I can be obedient to God. (2:8)

I can trust that God is working in me for His will and His good pleasure. (2:13)

I don’t get to complain/grumble. (2:14)

Any toil for God is not in vain. (2:16)

I can rejoice in the Lord. (3:1)

I can press on toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus. (3:14)

I don’t have to be anxious but can plead it out with the Lord, and He will give me peace which will guard my heart and mind in Christ Jesus (4:6-7)

I can think on whatever is true, honorable, right, pure, lovely, of good repute, excellence, any thing worthy of praise. (4:8)

I can practice the things I’ve learned and received and seen and heard from all that God has taught me. (4:9)

I can be content in whatever circumstance because I can do all things through Him who strengthens me. (4:12-13)

It is good and healthy and profitable to share my afflictions and listen to the afflictions of others. (4:14)

God will supply all my needs according to His riches and glory in Christ Jesus. (4:19)

Whatever you are struggling with, whatever heaviness is upon you, know that the Lord loves you and is still working on your behalf.

You are not a failure or worthless or a waste. You are worthy. And you are not left.

Love, Sarah Mae

P.S. My tiredness has since lifted, and I’ll share more about it soon.