I posted this on Jan 28, 2011. At that point I had waited, we had waited, prayed, tried, asked questions, begged, and tried to keep the faith for a child of our own.
Each time I was at the end of my ability to be patient and trust, God would send an encouragement that I could hold on to. Meat for my weary hunger. Confirmation that I wasn’t crazy or dreaming up a plan that wasn’t in His will for my life.
Waiting has been terribly sweet.
“Because sometimes in the waiting for what we long for, we praise God long when the gift comes at long last. Sometimes God has his people wait long, so our gratitude becomes deeper and wider.” – Ann Voskamp, The Jesse Tree Journey
It was chosen for me – the waiting.
I choose my response.
I grew weary at the amount of “In God’s timing. . .” I’ve heard after these last 5 and half years of deep desire to be called “Mommy.” I know it’s true and best, but those words stirred up ugly responses, like a rake to my tender heart.
But God. . . He has shown me grace, a bent down hug when I stumbled into a pit. He gives me revelation that His perfect timing was not only for me, but my future children – His little children. That someday their story will be in the Book with Isaac, Jacob, Joseph, Benjamin, Samson, Samuel, and John. All prayed for and believed for by their parents. All appointed for a miraculous time. All chosen before birth by Our Creator, to a specific job in The Kingdom.
All of these, the ones that were prayed for, longed for, waited for – they all point to Messiah – the One we all waited for. Who has come as promised and will come again. The waiting for His return is long-suffering, but Revelation imagery tells us is worth the wait. More-than-I-can-imagine worthy.
So I wait.
Today. . .
The waiting is over!!! Now I’m expectant with hopes and prayers for the miracle that grows inside me.
Seven is a perfect number and that’s how many years God prepared us for this moment, to give us a child that will enter the world in God’s perfect timing for him/her, for us, for His kingdom. {According to the doctor’s estimate, May 2, 2013 our little one will arrive in the world.}
But what I love most of all is how our biggest heart’s cry and prayers through the waiting years has already come true. Before our little one takes his/her first breath, God is receiving the glory for this little life.
No one has heard our story and not stated that’s it’s a miracle. Strangers have praised God with us. Others have been encouraged to wait for their miracle.
God’s infinite time is not like ours’. And when the miracle comes, the long-suffering seems like a blink. With our miracle realized, I don’t look back but forward with faith. We are so thankful that He had a perfect story for us, one that quickly connects others back to Him.
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I know your waiting can be discouraging and difficult. I relate to your struggles. But I am so thankful for the waiting.
Are you waiting on something, someone? Are you thankful for the waiting? Are you allowing Jesus to prepare you for His miracle?
Maybe it’s a dream to be realized. Paperwork to be finalized for your child to be brought home. A love to find you and make you his own. A relationship restored.
I’ve worn galoshes through puddles of glory wondering if I could come up with the best version of how God would be glorified through the rain. My thoughts were not as high as His thoughts. His timing was not mine. {And I’m so grateful.}
I created scenarios in my mind of amazing endings to my waiting. How it would play out, how I would find out a miracle awaits.
I know this. His ways will include waiting. But all miracles are worth the wait.
“I will praise the Lord at all times. I will constantly speak His praises. I will boast only in the Lord; let all who are discouraged take heart. Come, let us tell of the Lord’s greatness; let us exalt His name together. I prayed to the Lord, and He answered me. freeing me from all my fears. Those who look to him for help will be radiant with joy.” – Psalm 34: 1-5
What miracle are you waiting on? {Please share so we can pray for your endurance and praise Him when the miracle comes.}
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