Although the past few years have been hard for my family and I, God has used them to bring about needed changes and growth. I have learned more about God’s grace, and He has produced in me a deeper love for others! At times I have faced inner turmoil and wrestling with God. Questioning. Unknown. Fear. Feeling out of control. God and a few of His people have taken the time to help sort through each one. They helped us set it all at the foot of the cross. Our faith has grown.
Faith that He knows everything…even when I can see nothing!
When it rains it pours? That’s what it feels like!
I get irritated when my husband says, “God is good…”
I want to yell, “but this is all so hard!“
Yes, but God is STILL good.
Psalm 57:1 “Be merciful to me, O God, be merciful to me, for in you my soul takes refuge; in the shadow of your wings I will take refuge,til the storms of destruction pass by. I cry out to God Most High, to God who fulfills His purpose for me. He will send from heaven and save me…God will send out His steadfast love and His faithfulness…“
As I face each day, there are things that need to get done, places to go, and people who need me. I need to purpose to focus on this truth: God IS kind and merciful, and even though it feels like I am hiding in a cave, I’m hiding under the shadow of His wings. (like David in the cave–His situation seemed desperate, but the truth was that he was exactly where God wanted him. Secure in God’s protecting embrace!)
Then there are times I peer into the future. I look around me and see the the way things are and I become discouraged! I look ahead and I become fearful. Stressed!
“Mom, are you stressed today?” How did he know? I’ve not yelled and screamed. I’ve not spoken harshly to him. “It’s your face, Mom. You have that look. You look stressed!” I can’t hide it from my family when I am irritated or carrying those things that are not mine to carry! And I can’t hide it from God either.
“Are you stressed, Gina?” As if HE has to ask! He is not really ASKING, He is drawing me to Himself! “Are you stressed? Why are you peering into the future? Why are you carrying other people’s burdens? Why are you overwhelmed? Why are you concerned about your reputation? Aren’t I big enough to handle all of that? Haven’t I already proven MYSELF to you over and over?”
“Yes, Lord. You have. I’m sorry. Please forgive me!”
He always does!
God is so patient and merciful. And even though it might feel like I am hiding in a cave, I’m hiding under the shadow of His wings. (Like David in the cave. His situation seemed desperate, but the truth was that he was exactly where God wanted him, securely in God’s protecting embrace!)
Securely in God’s protecting embrace!
by Gina at Keepin’ it Real