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Heather is a brain cancer survivor who lives life on the edge. She loves her family, her bald head and, most of all, her Savior’s grace. She lives in the sunny yet very humid state of Florida with her husband, three children and 2 dogs, a miniature schnauzer named Bailey...

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  1. Dear Heather,
    thank you so much for your post. It is so much easier to remember the really important things after reading it then when stuck between piles of laundry or hurry the groceries. I miss my grandfather so much and I am also frightened by the fact, that no one knows, how long my grandmother will be with us, she is 96 years old. But I am really looking forward to the first child my best friend will have in January. The little one is already with us. I made some knitted stuff for christmas but also just so because I couldn´t wait.
    I pray for a peaceful holiday and a nice time with your family. Emma isn´t forgotten. Missing her is also part of a joyful life.

  2. the firsts. so hard. this post is an amazing picture of hope for all of those experiencing those firsts. thank you so much for sharing about such a tough time.

  3. Wow what a heartfelt and beautiful post. Thank you for sharing your heart. Firsts are so hard. So hard. I cannot imagine trying to get through the “firsts” of life without my Lord wrapping His arms around me and loving me through it all. I am thankful you are filled with amazing memories of Emma. What a treasure! I pray continued peace and joy over your family this holiday season. Blessings to you.

  4. I was so moved by your post! I have much to be thankful for. Thank you for the poignant reminder to be thankful.

    Blessings to you!

  5. This was beautifully written. This season is a “first” for us too. It has been so very hard but reading what you wrote just brought me to tears. May you have the courage to take on every day with compassion and love. That’s what she would have seen you do because that’s what you did for her.

    We lost our second daughter in July. She never got to see the world but I carried her for 9 beautiful months. Thanks for sharing this post.

  6. Thank you Heather, I am typing thru my tears. You are a blessing to “woe-is-me” and I am embarassed that I was feeling the way I was.. Thank you for sharing and God’s grace and peace on you and your family!! Blessings, barb

  7. You truly inspire people to be thankful even in the midst of trials.

    Praying for you and your family this Thanksgiving/Christmas holiday season. I know it will be tough–all “firsts without someone are”. May God surround you and your family with His love, grace & mercy this season!!


    Beth Williams

  8. The hardest thing is to lose a child. I cannot imagine that degree of pain. But your post reminds us all to cherish every single day with the ones we love because it is a gift. My heart goes out to you and I pray that you make it through the rest of the holiday season embraced by the Love of God because you will see her again.

  9. Heather your writing is such a gift to all of us. I pray for your family each day and will never forget your beautiful Emma. Thank you for sharing your heart .

  10. Heather,
    what a beautiful, beautiful post. Your words truly moved me; what a powerful testimony you bring this world by your thankful heart. So thankful to find you here.

  11. Oh sweet Heather, there will be lots of firsts for you and your family, but with your strong faith in our Lord you seem to ease through the pain. I am thankful I “met” you years ago because you and your writing skills (in addition to your big heart) are such an inspiration!

  12. Heather…you share such beauty through your pain. i am praying today that you will KNOW that you are being held by the angels…wrapped in the love of God.

  13. How beautiful…I wish to someday be able to share my heart through writing. But for I am content to be able to hear God’s word through others. My beautiful and awesome neice was called home to glory earlier this month on November 8, I can’t tell you how many times I hear her voice or see her smile everyday. I miss her so much…but I’m thankful for all that she gave. She left us with her three wonderful sons and a lifetime of memories that will always bring a smile to my face. I’m learning to be thankful more and more everyday. Again thank you for sharing and you are truly a blessing.

  14. Beautiful and so vulnerable.

    It’s been 26 years for me – and sometimes a “first” still pops up and surprises me. What a beautiful girl she is.

    Thanks for speaking straight to me and helping me to remember TODAY and what is important today.

    Reminded me of an update from a CaringBridge friend that I received today where she said”: “this year I have had to step back and reevaluate my gratitude. Finding it in the present. And setting it in the promise of eternity.”

    Thanks for all you say. Thanks for being willing to be vulnerable. It so helps the rest of us. God bless you and your family through all the “first” yet to come.

  15. Your words……Be truly, honestly, painfully thankful for the many blessings in your life…..I get it.

  16. I’ve followed you for many years, and I’ve wept with you and rejoiced with you. And now, my mama heart along with you, as this Christmas will be our 7th one with 16 year old son in heaven. And the firsts don’t end after the first year. We had our first child marry this past summer – his brother was missed again. We had a new baby almost 5 years ago – our first child that did not know him. But, with you, I look forward to when our tears will be forever wiped away. I am also so thankful for His grace and mercy, for joy in the morning, though the night was long, and the gift of each of our children’s lives we do not take for granted. Blessings as you celebrate our Savior’s birth, during this bittersweet time.

  17. As we head towards our third year without our forever nine year old I am filled with thankfulness for the time we had together and for the memories I cherish. While its far from easy I choose joy.