sheli massie
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i am a broken girl. woman aching for grace from her savior. a wife who wants to be better. and a mom who adores the blessings under her feet.

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  1. Bless your heart, Sheli, for sharing your story. I can relate to much of it, and I know how hard it is to be open.

    I agree completely that we need to keep reminding ourselves of the truth. We can trust God: His gifts, His promises, His Word. Some cases of depression may also require counseling, medication, etc., but I think that remembering those truths is central to re-learning who we are.

  2. What a brave post, and it resonates. While my struggle stems from a different place, many of the steps after were the same. May God continue to bless hurting hearts with NEWness.

  3. A true and honest story that is so important to be told. Thank you for being willing to lift the veil and share your heart!

    Praying in the telling, there is healing!

  4. Your story will resonate with many women who read it. Thank you for allowing God to use you, to “restore the years the locusts have eaten” {Joel 2}.

    Truth be told, many of us who love Jesus have struggled with depression and have emerged out of that dark hole into a richer, fuller life. Your words will give encouragement to some who desperately need hope.

    I hope these thoughts on conquering depression will be a helpful resource –

  5. His Love is Ours… no matter how hard we try to talk ourselves out of it. You are strong to share…thank you! xo

  6. Thank you for sharing. I find that it seems the most painful parts of my life are the parts that help others the most. I guess because we all have dark places, of hurt and pain, knowing someone can relate gives us courage, and hope. I always need the reminder that inspite of me… God still loves me and I matter to Him.

  7. On the wall at our church, there’s a beautiful mosaic. To make it, a group of artists had to first break pieces of pottery. Out of the broken pieces, God can make something beautiful. I know this is true, he’s doing it in your life, and in mine. Thank you for your courage in telling your story.

  8. Thank you for sharing Sheli….I can relate to struggling with all of that stuff, and choosing to believe what God says about me through his word has been a new development and helpful.

    Beautiful post.

  9. I, too, wondered how I could be so unnoticed, ugly, fat, unloveable… my sisters, my friends were all lovely and attractive. I was invisible.
    At the age of thirty, I had the chance to join a group of friends in Florida for a few days. They decided to spend a day at one of the Disney attractions but I wanted to go to Sea World. I was standing, alone, near an aquarium, mesmerized by the movements of an octopus. Ugly, really, weird blob of a head, propelling forward by the strong push of eight snaky legs. Then this creature attached itself to the wall of glass, with it’s underbelly exposed to me. The colors and vibrations and wonder of it’s most vulnerable places shown to me. In that moment I saw myself. And I heard the sweet whisper of Jesus, “You are fearfully and wonderfully made.”
    That moment changed me.

  10. Sheli, thank you so much for sharing your story. His story. It’s beautiful. And so are you! Psalm 34:5: “Those who look to Him are radiant.” That’s you, my dear.

    Praying over you right now, that God continually reveals new truth to your heart each and every day.

    Be blessed,

  11. Beautifully written, you told my story along with yours. You truly captured the feelings that comes with being assaulted. I love that you shared these words, thank you. Then to sum it up with I am …. Wow! Thank you for reminding me Who I am in Christ, that help change my perception of myself today. Be Blessed

    • i am only redeemed and made new through my King, you are a child of Him. He loves you. He wants to heal you. let Him. praying for you right now.

  12. *Telling* your story is beautiful worship, and it honors Our Father–so. much. You give life and shine a light on freedom when you talk about the dark times that He used to bring you to Him.

    Rich blessings, Sheli, as He continues to lift you up to See His truth for your life. You ARE valued. Your life has purpose!

  13. It’s a struggle that many are ashamed of. Yet your vulnerability, your story encourages others to open up. Thank you!

  14. How beautiful, Sheli! I can relate so fully to what you expressed. God is a healer; He sends His Word and heals us of all that would seek to destroy and limit and harm us. Praise Him for bringing you, and all of us, into a better place in Him. He makes all things new!

  15. I have never thought of attention as payment for wrongs done against us, but, o my stars, you are right! What an insight! We seek to be “paid” for our pain through being seen by those around us. We want them to acknowledge our story through their notice. Wow – that is profound, Sheli. You have a depth in your writing that reflects a heart that sees the One Who Sees You. Thank you for sharing a glimpse into the healed parts of your story – God bless you!! I look forward to reading your blog! Hugs 🙂

  16. It is so awesome to see God work! You are amazing and I am so proud of you for laying it all out there. The only way for the light to get in and shine on all those you touch! So blessed to know you.

  17. i see myself in your words and your writing. though it’s not easy to share it is in our very pain that others see a glimpse of hope, a feeling that everything might never be ALL right, but it will be alright. somehow we make it through the craziness of this world on the shoulders of others who share our faith in God and though they are broken, find wholeness through Him.

    i just checked out your blog and became your newest follower. what struck me right away was that your blog is written all in lower case except when you mention God. mine is too. i’m glad i found you today and i’m glad you found the courage to share, once again, what others need to know and hear.

    may your day be AMAZING in Him!!!

  18. Thank you for being bold enough to share your beautiful story of “beauty from ashes”- a timeless truth we all need.

    “I am a broken girl in love with her King– I love adoption–I love reading– I love my friends– I love to laugh– I love Thai food– I love a great cup of coffee– I love the beach– I love my family– I love campfires– I love watching worthless tv– I love catching fireflies”– Me too!!!

  19. Absolutely wonderful and great for anyone struggling to read, too. Thank you for sharing.

  20. Yay Sheli! I fully agree with what Amy Hunt said – worship is telling your story. Thanks for writing your story down and sharing it. Love you!

  21. I like the way Lysa Terkeurst put it…I am handpicked by God! We should not feel inadequate or afraid when we focus on Him! i (in her book:Becoming More than A Good Bible Study Girl).

    How very true that is! If we shift our focus off of ourselves & comparing ourselves to others & think about Him…how much better we would all be!!!

  22. I so understand…. I have abuse in my background. I have brought that darkness with me and all the baggage also. God has taught me the same truths he taught you and I daily need to remind myself of them.

    Thank you for sharing your journey and story with us!!! There is value and healing in sharing. (I remind myself of this also).

  23. Great post, Sheli! Thank you for stepping out to share it. Women need to hear and encourage one another in our vulnerabilities, reminding one another we’re not alone.

    Well written!

  24. *tears of empathy* It’s so easy to tell others how loved by the Father they are but so hard to feel it one’s self sometime. Believing it and claiming it by faith as one who always (and still sometimes) felt insignificant. Beautiful writing! You are so loved!

  25. Sheli, you are a beautiful writer! Keep writing and sharing your story as you are touching so many. YOU have a lot to say and your words are worth it. Be encouraged that He is speaking through you so beautifully. I resonate with your story and am just starting my journey toward healing. Today I felt like giving up and being done and i was feeling so worthless, unlovable, impure, ashamed, and lost…your writing reminded me to look to God and not others. It reminded me how He loves, how my worth is found in Him, how I am dirty as rags but seen as pure and holy in His eyes, and I was reminded how He is there always and I am never lost. He, through you, gave me hope today to continue and to live and to fight one more day and tomorrow He will remind me again until I believe those truths! So find encouragement in the fact that God is using you for so much and it is so evident how BIG He is in your life! He loves you unconditionally and is showing His love through you! Thanks for writing…keep it up.

  26. Because we do NOT talk about this is exactly the reason I blog about it. I blog often and I am brutally honest and open. However, I don’t have any instigating factor in my past, I can’t remember a time that I did not feel like this. We need to talk about this in the church. Too many of us are trapped and staying that way because we don’t share, we don’t know that there are others out there who feel exactly like we do. Thank you for being open and honest.

  27. Thank You. Thank You so much for sharing this. I often feel so alone with my difficult thoughts towards myself. It always feels that no one can understand, so to see that there’s someone who might have an idea, is a gift. Thank you for sharing your story with us. I will treasure those last 5 lines.

  28. You are beautiful, and so is your story. You have an amazing way of sharing honest thoughts that open others up to Christ. Thank you for sharing, may God bless this act of courage and journey of faith. You are amazing, girfriend! Luv ya.

  29. Thank you for being so open and honest. When I read your post I felt like I was reading my own story! I share so many of the same hurts and depression that you do. I, too, find it hard to share parts of my story. I almost wish we could meet and talk in person. It always helps to know other people (women) have the same struggles I do. God bless you!

  30. Oh, Shelli! How well I know your story because it could have been my own. It can be my own. I regularly need to look up because I need to remember the truths you’ve spoken of; the beauty of being His beloved and His creation! I, too, tell my story for the same reason…to help others, to remember that I am an overcomer, to say that I am not a victim, to say that I matter and so do you! Thank you for your courage and for being an overcomer through Christ who has freed you and redeemed you!

  31. All my life I’ve heard that God works in mysterious ways and I totally see that truth now. Only He could have led me to your post . Thank you for your words of hope and encouragement. All the spiritual gifts assessments I’ve taken have always said that faith is one of my gifts. I believe in the work Jesus did on the cross. I believe the Word is the truth…I just didn’t/couldn’t believe it was true for me. I have felt so sin-laden and dirty and full of shame for so many reasons, struggled with depression, food addiction and self-loathing. I couldn’t wrap my head aroudn the fact that He loves me. Still can’t. Luckily my heart is intervening and letting me have faith to accept that precious gift of His love and mercy. I am amazed by the truth I hear when I shut up and listen. Thank you for reminding me that healing is in His wings.

  32. lifting you up right now. you are not alone sweet one. the devil wants us to believe that we are what happened. we are not. we have been covered by the blood of the Lamb. you are clothed with His spirit. know this. you my friend are not alone.