Lately my heart and mind has been plagued with doubt. My confidence as a wife and mother has been lacking. I am irritated and impatient. What is going on?
This morning I have been bombarded by emails, Facebook posts and blog feeds that are graciously showing me just what the problem is. I have been leaving out the most important being in my life.
The first thing I read was an email about “checking in” with Jesus through daily prayer. The man in the story would visit a church over his lunch break and pray:
“I just came again to tell you, Lord, how happy I have been since we found each other’s friendship and you took away my sin. Don’t know much of how to pray, but I think about you every day. So, Jesus, this is Jim checking in today.”
Then I read this verse on a Facebook post: Job 8:21 “He will yet fill your mouth with laughing, and your lips with rejoicing.”
Next I read a blog post about focusing on following Jesus, not on who is following us. Immediately after that I read another blog post about Jesus making us uncomfortable in an effort to bring us closer to Him.
So apparently I must not be paying much attention to God’s little whispers lately. Not apparently, I know I have not been turning to Him each day. I am guilty of not checking in for sure. I get so caught up in my day, my problems, my to-do list, not getting my to-do list done, etc., etc., my, my, my.
The ridiculous thing is that I know better. I know I am not capable of taking the reigns. I am painfully aware of what happens when I go throughout my day with Him. So today I start over…again.
Here I am, Lord, checking in.
“But as for me, I trust in You, O LORD; I say, “You are my God.” My times are in Your hand;”
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