How do you fill the empty, on those days when it seems you have nothing left to give?
All day long, I pour out, filling each one of these children of mine up. I do this over and over again from sunrise to sunset, and some days, even beyond and into the night. Every mother does. This is the calling. This is the requirement of a good mother. And each one of them, blessed and cursed with various personality traits, ingrained deep through. There’s one of them that is never full. This one needs more than I feel capable of giving some days. And while I still nurse my own old wounds of rejection, I fear all of the time that if I can’t fill him up, I am wounding. This mother’s heart is constantly laid out; it gets stepped on and worn through. The fabric of it gets stretched and frayed and some days, like an old worn carpet, all dirt flecked and spotted with mud stains, I want to roll it up and stuff it away. I want to lock it up and toss the key. I think, “ I can’t do this. I have nothing left to give!” How do you keep giving of yourself, when the will to give wanes, and you, yourself, ache dry and dusty?
For everyone who asks, receives, and he who seeks, finds. Luke 11:9
When I have nothing left to pour out, no oil left in my jar to feed their love- thirsty souls, when this one comes to me, the sparkle dulled in his eyes, and he pulls heavy on me, I ask for some to fill where there is none. I hold him close and pray for God to hurry up and give to me, so I can give quickly to him.
God is gracious to provide whenever we ask. I am learning that, it is out of the empty vessels that his grace is allowed to overflow. What good is a heart that is full up with other things? It is exactly this worn out, matted and frayed heart that he can use, that he can restore, and bring forth a fountain that refreshes and nourishes. God is always capable of filling the need. He repeatedly fills my empty so that I can in turn, fill these four little ones to overflowing. He empties himself out again and again, that we might gain a heart that bursts with abundance, that we might learn to keep giving, out of what we don’t have, trusting that Abba provides.
But the Lord stood at my side and gave me strength. 2 Timothy 4:17
Sweet sister, HE is enough. His grace is sufficient for you. (2 Corinthians 12:9-10) Praying today, that He fills your empty to overflowing, that you may in turn fill up those who need you, with more of him. Praying that you and I learn to be that vessel.
Gracious Father, thank you for filling the empty. Thank you for sustaining me when I just want to disappear. Father, forgive me when I don’t come to you to be filled. Sustain me for this job, for this mothering thing that empties me out daily, sometimes hourly. Give me your grace and strength to trust that you will provide, that you will give me enough to fill these children up, to love them like you love them, and to know that when I am empty, it’s just room for you to fill.
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Your writing is so beautiful. And from the empty of my life, I thank you for this reminder. I hold up my cup to Him who is waiting to fill it…and ask.
Thank you friend.
Oh Christine, bless you. Your kindness is sweetness to my heart. Praying He fills you up today, as I am confident He will!
Marisa Gary says
my goodness! How did you know I needed to read this post. this day?
Marisa~ I didn’t but surely, God did! Bless you, friend, praying you are full-up with his love, and that you can pour out all that is needed, knowing He will refill you when you ask. 😉
Caryn Poling says
“to know that when I am empty, it’s just room for you to fill.”
Beautiful post, almost makes me want to be empty more often. Thank you for this today, I won’t worry about those empty times, because I know He will be filling me.
God Bless you,
Holley Gerth says
Life to the full because He fills us…thanks for letting your words be poured into our hearts!
tammy@meadows speak says
Thanks for this beautiful reminder…of which I need to hear so many days “to know that when I am empty, it’s just room for you to fill.” Yes, yes.
Seriously loved this!
Got so much going on… feeling empty… needed this reminder… AND 2 Corinthians 12:9-10 is one of my life verses!
Wow. This is so where I’ve been at this week…. feeling as if I am not enough, fearing the mother wounds I have inflicted. Clinging to II Cor. 12:9-10 — thank you!
Thank you, thank you, thank you, for writing this, this is exactly how I felt last night, babysitting my grand daughters again, as my daughter was working.
I was only looking at my own selfish desires, not what Christ wants from me.
Oh, Kris. Again, another great post from you.
I so get this: “I fear all of the time that if I can’t fill him up, I am wounding.”
And this is truth: “it is out of the empty vessels that his grace is allowed to overflow. What good is a heart that is full up with other things?”
Thank you, thank you for this post, Kris!
Oh ladies! So many of us wandering around desperate for that bit that we need to get through- praying for all of you today, that you turly expirience His filling, and grace as you ask Him to be enough for you. Our God does not dissapoint, and I know he will be your all in all! Bless you, you have all blessed me so today. Thank you, thank you, thank you for your kindness, for your comraderie, for your encouragement! What a blessing!!
Thank you for this, I’ve been feeling the way you’ve described, and needed that refocus back on Him.
I really needed this today. I want to be emptied so that He can fill my cup!
Amy Hunt says
Oh my friend…I read this yesterday and returned to be reminded of this truth again today. Life your words breathe.
Rich blessings, Krissie, as you tell of His Truth and help hearts to heal…
Amy, I am humbled by your grace and thankful that you found His truth in these words. That is all I ever want, just His truths to encourage and inspire, to give hope and help heal in His perfect name, for His glory alone. Praying that he fills you up to overflowing and that you are reminded through the filling that HE truly is everything we could ever need. It is all found in trusting his heart, his arms to carry us~ Bless you, sister.
Daksha desai says
Laura, this is Roma’s mother here. – your post was really thought provoking. Eager to be emptied- so as to be filled again by almighty!