This picture is taken under a New York sky while my husband, three kids and I took a quick furlough from our church-planting time in Southern France. I suppose the sky looks the same wherever you view it, but to me, this sky delighted me. Because it meant I stood away from France’s sky. After that trip, we returned to France, only to move back home in a matter of months. It’s still hard for me to understand the whys of everything.
You might envision missionary work as noble, beautiful, and rewarding. You’d be right. But it’s also painful, bewildering and sometimes debilitating. There, from the moment we landed in France, we felt the little black rain cloud, made famous by Winnie the Pooh, follow us, elongate, gather steam, then burst its fury over our family. In every way I felt its wetness. And like enduring rain storms for days, I allowed the rain cloud to win sometimes. I certainly didn’t splash beneath it.
In that state, I learned how to grit my way through the shadows beneath the clouds. I became tenacious. Or sometimes just plain tired. There were days that the bed looked more appealing than interacting in French with people who had little patience for me. I wish I could say that I thrived there. I didn’t always. I tried. But there were things I learned that helped me rejoice under the cloud, to dance through the puddles of stress. Maybe they’ll help you. They’re wrapped up neatly in this verse:
“On your feet now—applaud God! Bring a gift of laughter, sing yourselves into his presence. ” Psalm 100:1, MSG
I learned to stand on fearful feet. Sometimes simply choosing to pull myself out of bed was enough to jump start my energy and keep me going. On my feet I could busy myself with tasks, love my children, bake bread, and walk to school to pick up my youngest two. Simply standing helped a lot.
I learned to applaud God. Anything good that came out of a stressful ministry day became a place for me to hand-clap God’s faithfulness. In gratitude, even for small things, I found the day brighter.
I learned to bring a gift of laughter. Living in a foreign country had its moments. I had to laugh when I tried to pantomime the first Thanksgiving to a horrified grocery clerk. She couldn’t understand why I’d ordered such a large dinde. I still laugh thinking about it.
I learned to sing myself into God’s presence. There were days when my shower became my cathedral. In the car, I learned to praise. On my runs through the hills of Southern France, I stacked my ipod with overcoming songs, worship songs, happy songs. Bringing music into my stress helped me cope with the worries.
I live in Texas now, under this sky:
The lessons from living cross-culturally stick with me today. But more than that, the lessons of learning to splash under a rain cloud have enriched me when more clouds come. And they come. Even this week as I sent an email to my prayer team, I used the Winnie the Pooh illustration. Through all those things I mentioned plus a hefty dose of girlfriend prayer, I danced in the puddles. It’s my prayer that you dance and splash too.
By Mary DeMuth
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Denese B. says
Thank you so much for sharing, Mary. Beautiful and so encouraging, I love THE MESSAGE, it bubbles up with life and joy and there are beautiful word treasures just waiting for discovery. Applauding God with you!!!
Mary DeMuth says
I love that translation too. Thanks for the sweet encouragement, Denese!
Beautiful in Him says
Thanks for your words…I too have learned to dance in the puddles of life! God has put me where I am in this season for a reason and I may as well dance in the rain!!
Mary DeMuth says
Great perspective, Miss Beautiful!
Nancy says
I can completely relate to your analogy of the little black cloud following you around and your suggestions are so true. Finding gratitude is huge! And, I have found myself always having the same encouraging song in my car’s cd player to go to whenever that dark cloud doesn’t roll away. I loved your post. Thank you for your encouraging words and reminding us that God is with us every step of the way.
Mary DeMuth says
That’s a terrific idea, Nancy. I love how music lifts my heart.
Sherry says
“Thou hast turned for me my mourning into dancing…”
Psalm 30:11a
May we find ourselves dancing on the ashes.
Mary DeMuth says
Great metaphor!
Rebekah says
Thanks for sharing this verse Sherry. I really like it.
wanda says
Your description made perfect sense to me. You used the word missionary family…but I would insert Pastor’s family for myself.
We felt that black cloud and all the defeat that went along with it.
Still crawling away from the wreckage and putting back the pieces that satan stole away.
Thank you for sharing.
Mary DeMuth says
So sorry, Wanda. Yes, a pastor’s family goes through it too. So hard. So painful in the aftermath. But sweet in the healing. Praying the sweetness comes to you today.
Donna says
I play music 24/7 almost. It’s encouraging and comforting and beautiful…just whatever I need. I want to go a little further and dance to it just to be joyful and have fun while I go about my day. That’s one of my next goals. :o)
Mary DeMuth says
Dance away, Donna! And then please You Tube it.
Rebekah says
Thanks for sharing Mary. The entire time I was reading I was thinking of my sister and one of my best friends who are on the mission field in the Philippines. The sister has been over there 2 months and the friend for 2 1/2 weeks but that will eventually be 3 years and 2 years and I know they’ll have days where the little black rain cloud is hovering over them. They probably already have. I shared this with them so that they might be as encouraged as I was to stand, applaud, laugh and praise Him when those clouds come along.
Thanks again. This really spoke to me today.
Mary DeMuth says
Thanks Rebekah. It totally blesses me that you shared this with your missionary friends/family. I have a heart for those who venture like we did.
Jenny says
I had no idea you used to be a missionary in France… this is so cool Mary – thanks for sharing 🙂
Mary DeMuth says
Thanks Jenny. Yes, for 2 1/2 years near Nice in Southern France. We’ve been back four years now and are just now feeling like we’ve healed.
Bobbie Gillette says
Thank you for your encouraging post. Look for the rainbow, no matter how very faint it might be, I know God allows all things. Cloudy days and rain much needed for the cleansing process, not only for the landscape, but more so for my soul, so my spirit can break through my soulish outer woman. Then and only then can I do the work He has for me.
Mary DeMuth says
Beautifully put, Bobbie. We do need rain!
Kasey says
Oh ministry is such a scary thing. Our faith is tested so often. It’s so important to cherish the small moments, the good and bad.
Mary DeMuth says
Very true. It’s sometimes easier for me to camp on the negative…
Tammy says
Your words could not have come a t a better time. I was under a cloud of rain and having my own self pity party. I love the whole idea of dancing under the cloud. Reminds me of a song that talks about God dancing over us and singing all around us …wish I could remember that song title…oh I have digressed…thank you for helping me see I can still dance amid the clouds.
Mary DeMuth says
Thanks Tammy, so glad the post helped. Dance, dance, dance.
Linda says
Mary, I have been a silent admirer for a very long time now. I just wanted to say how much you bless me – how your words uplift and encourage. Thank you for faithfully writing your heart and walking in obedience.
Mary DeMuth says
Thanks so much, Linda. I needed to read that today!
Alexandra says
Mary, I am sorry that you had such a painful time as a missionary. I grew up as a missionary kid, and I know how hard it can be sometimes. But Europe is so desperately in need of people to bring the message of the Gospel! All my extended family is there, and the culture has drifted so far from God as to make the Bible seem like a fairy tale. I’m sure that made your ministry so much harder, but thank you for making the sacrifice of going, thank you for being willing to live under that rain-cloud for a while in order to share God’s love with these people. My prayer is that you may see abundant fruit, a result of what you and your family gave during your time in France.
Mary DeMuth says
Thank you so much, Alexandra. I so agree that Europe is hard. I personally believe it’s the hardest place for sharing the gospel right now.
I do know that growth in me has happened as a result, so perhaps that was what God was after.
Jeri @godsdreamsforme says
Woohoo! Dancing in the puddles – with our dog…LOL. He’s my daytime dance partner. Now when we dance, I’ll remember to stand on fearful feet, applaud God, laugh, and sing myself right into His awesome presence.
Mary DeMuth says
Yay, Jeri. I have a dancing dog too.
Toni Smith says
Thank you! “Life isn’t about waiting for the storm to pass…it’s about learning to dance in the rain.”
Mary DeMuth says
You’re welcome, Toni.
Holley Gerth says
Mary, it does my heart good to see your face and words here in this place. I love how you are forever pursuing God–finding Him in the hard, the far-away, the everyday. You help us chase Him too. And you remind us whatever path that leads us down, it always takes us to love. So grateful for you, my word friend.
Mary DeMuth says
Holley, thank you so much. I loved being here and love the community y’all have developed. Amazing.
Heather Gemmen Wilson says
Hi Mary! You’re just so beautiful. Can’t wait to dance in a puddle with you! 🙂
Mary DeMuth says
I hope it’s soon. I need to connect with you!
Hollie says
Mary, I can’t specifically relate to your struggles on a foreign mission field… but, as a born worrier, I can really appreciate your encouragement to stand, applaud, laugh, and sing our way through challenging days. I’ve always loved the Message… thanks for pointing me toward a great verse.
Mary DeMuth says
Thanks Hollie. I pray you keep dancing.
Sharon says
Mary, I can completely relate to your mission field experience. (spent 6 years in the southern Philippines) My heart ached for you, and me, as I read this. Often God moves us, geographically, through uncomfortable circumstances, but thankfully we can trust his sovereignty, and his will as we seek him in all we do. Sometimes we need to be outside our comfort zone to be teachable. Those hard times are the times I find myself closer to God and learning the most.
Mary DeMuth says
Yes, His sovereignty really helps me.
Abby says
Mary,
Your words speak into a time I am preparing for…we are preparing our family of myself, husband, son (3), daughter (1) to move to Hungary as long-term missionaries with Student Venture International (middle-high school students)…God has led clearly and so we continue in faith, but there are many costs in this season to make such a move–as the Lord confirmed this calling/next steps this summer while there (our 3rd time) I laid my heart before Him and could see the tears and loneliness in advance…
I appreciate your words and want to carry them in my heart for the days ahead–thank you again for sharing:) blessings, Abby:)
Mary DeMuth says
May the Lord go before, behind and beside. May He be your protector and joy.
Ramblings of a Woman says
Thank you for these words! I am learning how to dance under my own dark clouds right now!
Bernice
http://bernicewood.wordpress.com/2010/10/28/the-perfectly-imbalanced-life/
Rachel says
I love the idea of applauding God. And like you said even if it is just for the small things it will change the outlook on your day. I need to applaud God more often than I do and switch to a more positive and greatful mindset for all that He has done for me of which I deserve none.