I don’t do change well. I get all twitchy, cranky and nervous at the thought of giving up the known for the unknown. I’m not the type of person to get a wild hair and rearrange furniture, switch to a different brand of deodorant or color my hair. It’s just not going to happen and I’m okay with that. I know that there are programs out there to help people like me. But, because it would require me to change my view on change, I avoid them.
Now, before you think to yourself how incredibly boring I am, I should let you know that my attempts to avoid change have not been successful. I’ve been dragged (kicking and screaming) to live in different states, changed jobs, and of course, living with two toddlers brings lots of daily change.
Change has visited my life in various packages. Some have been positive and others very difficult. I can honestly say that every circumstance, good or bad, has been a gift from our gracious Heavenly Father. But, circumstantial change has been a minor detail. As of late, God has been focused on heart change.
Currently, my husband and I are walking a very difficult path. We have cried together and sought the Lord together. The outcome is unknown, and we have a lot of fears. But, one thing we are certain of is this: while our Heavenly Father is absolutely concerned about the condition of our circumstances, He is far more concerned about the condition of our hearts. He is concerned with cultivating our hearts and bringing us to a place of unbridled worship. It’s so easy to praise our gracious Heavenly Father in the good times…but, will we praise him in the difficult times as well? When all the daily stuff is stripped away, what’s left? When people walk out of our lives, who is waiting patiently for us in the corner? It’s Him. Is there anything left for Him? He’s quietly calling us to Him, asking us to let Him shoulder our burden.
Through our circumstance, my husband and I have been reminded that nothing shocks our Heavenly Father. Nothing catches Him by surprise, and he never finds Himself ill-prepared to care for our needs. We’ve learned that while God was preparing our hearts for this defining moment, He was preparing the hearts of those around us to minister to us in various ways, each a direct blessing from Him. It’s been humbling and has brought us to tears of gratitude. Despite our troubled times, He is still on the throne. He is ready, willing and able. Where we are weak He is strong.
We have found comfort in Matthew 11:28-30
“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.”
We are daily releasing to him our worries, fears of the unknown, and willingness to go or do all that He asks…no matter how uncomfortable it may be. We praise Him, because while we do not know what tomorrow holds, or what change is around the corner, we do know this: Our Heavenly Father has not changed. He is still sovereign. He is still reigning on high. He still holds the world firmly in His hands. Our hearts choose to praise Him.Leave a Comment