I stood on a scale while my weight was broadcast on television.
[A nightmare. I know.]
Quick recap: in January, I applied for a Nashville version of Biggest Loser. Honestly, I was bored and I saw the commercial and so I filled out the online application. I never intended to actually be picked and then have to weigh on television and then have to exercise and eat right.
Well. Because we all know how God works and we all know that He loves to see our comfortable little boxes and then proceed to shove us out of them, I made it through all the rounds of cuts to the top 10.
So in January, I weighed. On television.
And I weighed again half way through the competition.
And I will weigh again this month.
If you would have asked me in January, I would have told you that my mind was healthy and it was time for my body to catch up.
Now I know that I was wrong.
My mind was weak. My mind was convinced that if I was tired of trying, I could quit. I was a quitter.
But because this competition (called the Subway Get Fit Challenge) was broadcast to every corner of middle Tennessee, quitting wasn’t an option.
And then as days passed, I realized that something was changing– in my mind. I actually began to believe that I was strong. That I could push past those minutes on the treadmill or push past the Oreos in the grocery store. I could push past the times that it felt like the only thing that would heal my heart was ice cream.
Crazy enough, my body listened. When my mind said stop, my body stopped. When my mind said go, my body went. When my mind said, “Hang in there, sister, you can do this!”, my body would actually hang in there.
Trust me. There have been some hard days [that may or may not have involved white chocolate cranberry cupcakes] and tears. This has not been an easy breezy few months.
But all those days, the worst moments, are turning out to be totally worth it.
Now Ephesians 4:22-24 (this is The Message version) has become alive in my heart.
“Since, then, we do not have the excuse of ignorance, everything—and I do mean everything—connected with that old way of life has to go. It’s rotten through and through. Get rid of it! And then take on an entirely new way of life—a God-fashioned life, a life renewed from the inside and working itself into your conduct as God accurately reproduces His character in you.”
Isn’t that beautiful?
I’m trying to live that. An entirely new way of life that starts with a renewed inside.
My body is slowly changing, but that isn’t the part that amazes me. [In fact, my body is changing slower than I would like, but we’ll talk about that later…. grrr….]
People keep asking how I feel. Do I feel thinner? Do I feel stronger? Do I feel better?
The answer is yes. To all of those things.
But most of all, I feel new–body, mind, and spirit.
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