Confessions

It's been a rough week. Mark and I have gotten hammered with one round of difficult news after another. Most of it has been about people we dearly love. Most of it has been things we can't do anything about. We both said yesterday, "We can handle it when something happens to us. It's when something happens to someone we care about that it really gets us down."

We already felt physically, emotionally, and spiritually worn down from being in a way-too-busy season of our lives. I recently read the book Margin about how we all need extra space. I'm a speed reader and I zipped through the whole thing on a plane ride (all the while thinking that's probably not what the author intended at all). I'm fully aware, and even more so now, that I don't have much margin these days. This week was like a twenty-dollar withdrawal when my bank account only had five left. At another time, I could probably easily cover it. But not right now.

I feel as if my writing has reflected this. I haven't been as authentic, intentional, or inspiring as I'd like to be lately and I'm confessing that to you. This isn't my most eloquent post and I'd really rather say I'm doing great. But this is real and that's what I want to be with you.

I just took a long nap (which always helps, as my Grandpa reminds me). I had a piece of chocolate, a few moments to write, and some time today with friends who encourage me. I also gave myself some grace and permission to not be okay right now. I'm finding those are the little things that slowly make a big difference. 

So if you're feeling a little down today along with me, I want to send some grace and my prayers your way too. May God carry us all and show us His love in the ways we need.

Love,

Holley

Comments

[Antje]

Though I don`t know you personally I can relate and understand. This not-so-"eloquent" post is pure, honest and open. You`re tired, you`re stressed out, and that´s okay. Happens to all of us occasionally.

Take good care of yourself, be kind to yourself, be patient. And thanks for sharing this.

May the Lord bless you and keep you.

Unknown reader Antje who really likes you weblog

[Jeanne @ Inspiring Ideas]

Grace and prayers back to you, Holley.

[Monique Crafton]

The light of God surrounds us. We are never alone.
The love of God enfolds us. Enfolded in the love of God, we receive the deep, abiding comfort of our Creator. The power of God protects us. God is the one Power and Presence in the universe, ever with us and blessing us. The presence of God watches over us. We are eternally one with God and one another.
Wherever we are, God is; and all is well.

I really enjoy your posts. Keep wrapping your days w/ His love,

[Ally]

Oh how I understand this one. It seems to be a season of questions and grief and though I know that He has a plan and it's unfolding just as He would have it do, it still hurts. Sometimes I wish faith was enough to protect our hearts, but I have found it simply allows us to hold on. Sometimes, that is easier than other times :)